Stand Up For Yourself

"One should not avoid one's tests, although they are
perhaps the most dangerous game one could play and are in the end
tests which are taken before ourselves and before no other judge."
Beyond Good and Evil, Nietzsche

My apologies for the lack of posts recently. I have been grappling with my own dramas and coming to terms with a whole new existential expansion.

If you've read by books and blog posts you will know that over the past few years in particular I've faced a few challenges. Many times during these periods I've asked that fatal question "Why me?"

"Why is this happening to me?" "Why can't I just have a nice easy life like many others?" "Why the drama?"

Unfortunately what compounds that is my belief that we create our own reality - hence we must take responsibility for what we are attracting into our lives. And yes I know there's a whole fate question bound up in there somewhere and in recent times I've come to the conclusion that we do indeed choose the circumstances of our lives - that in fact life is about expansion or what I would call ascension. By choosing the circumstances of our lives and then conveniently forgetting why we chose them before we incarnate we begin from a whole new starting point. Hence my post "The Art of Remembering Who You Really Are".

So, what's my point here?

Well - basically where I've got to is "Step up buddy! You created this so own it!"

"One cannot learn wisdom by sitting at
another's feet. One must live one's own life,
 make one's own mistakes, feel one's own ecstasy
 to learn the true meaning of existence,
for it is different in each individual.
Fall down, get up, do it all
 over again in another context.
Experience. And learn.
That's the only way."
The Ninja, Eric Van Lustbader

I've had a great urge recently to fight against what's been appearing in my life. To run away from the challenges that I've faced. To get ANGRY about what's been happening. To ask the question of what am I doing WRONG?

Yeah sure - wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong WRONG! What's WRONG with me? Why is this happening to me?

Hear the fight? Hear the anger?

By fighting against I dis-empower myself and become simply RE-ACTIVE to what's going on - giving my power away to others.

I pulled a Medicine Card on all this - Snake - Transmutation - People with snake medicine have been bitten many times (yep that's me...) so much so that they are able to transmute any poison be it physical, emotional or spiritual. Sure ok...

So, instead of fighting against I sucked it up, pulled it towards me and transmuted it into something better, something loving, something more aligned to what I believe in.

I owned my experience and I slowly came to embrace the idea that ALL life experiences are equal - good and bad. With more work on acceptance and release I finally began to find a way out of my self imposed prison.

Faith.

"Embrace the Freedom that comes from having
complete Faith that what you are getting right now is Perfect"

Total release and surrender.

And now I can go forth and speak by truth with an open heart totally releasing any worries about what others will think about me - for I am at peace with who I am.

Talk is easy action takes courage.

"Life shrinks or expands
in proportion to one's courage."
Anais Nin

In peace and love always.